Surprise!

About 2 weeks ago, we received quite the surprise! I had been feeling a weird rubbing on the inside of my right rib (I know, sounds as weird as it feels).  I blew it off for a few days, and then finally one day I thought to myself "ok, seriously, am I crazy, or could I be pregnant?" So that night, I took a test, and boom, it immediately turned positive! My next question after a momentary freak out was to wonder how far along I was if I really thought that I could feel something moving.  A few days later, I realized I probably wasn't as far along as I originally thought (despite the weird feeling still), and felt kind of foolish for announcing to the entire world we were expecting, when there is always the possibility of a miscarriage this early.  I still wasn't sure how far along I was though, so we got an appointment for a sonogram.

Well, we had a sonogram yesterday and our little bug is due July 4, which makes me 6 weeks pregnant.  Saw the little heartbeat flicker and it measured over 100, which is very good.

Through all of this, I have wondered how in the world I tested positive soooo early, why I had the weird movement feeling that made me test, and what in the world is going on, and what do we do about the anticipated adoption we were all gearing up for?

Then I realized.  It's God.  I really believe that He put those weird movements in my stomach to help, He gave me a positive result way early to help.  The week after I found out I was pregnant was our projected week to become a certified home to adopt.  What if I hadn't realized I was pregnant for another 3 or 4 weeks, and we possibly could have had a child in our home by then? What in the world would I have done then? In fact, the day I took the test, the crib arrived on the doorstep for the baby we thought we would be getting.  While my heart broke a little bit to realize we might not be able to follow through with giving a child who desperately needs a home right now, I would have been more heartbroken later. I think that God was testing us, to see if we would do what we believed He was telling us to do. More than anything God just wanted our obedience.  We still have strong desires to adopt, and I'm positive we will someday, but for right now we have prayerfully decided to put adopting on a temporary hold.  The thought of having 3 children under 2 (almost under 1), makes me want to have a panic attack just thinking about it.  I am so thankful that God is in control and is faithful to show us His plans at just the right time.

I believe there is a reason everyone knows we are expecting so soon as well. At first I was embarrassed, because I really believed I was further along given all the signs, but many have comforted me and told me that it just gives this baby more prayer from the start :), so I am okay with that.  Please pray for this sweet baby bug! Also please pray for me, I leave for Haiti the first week of December, I will be about 10 weeks pregnant.  I was scheduled to get some shots just 4 days after I found out I was pregnant for my trip (another reason I believe God intervened early), but being in my first trimester, it may not be safe for the baby if I get them.  So please pray that I can stay healthy and safe in Haiti!

What a crazy ride.